Messy situations find me.

But still,

I smell you in my hair

And punch myself to never care

This scent that whispers -

You were there.

I loathe myself for doing this.

I'll sit beside my caprice head

Repainting all those things we said.

I promised, but my eyes sting red -

Black tears are solving nothing.

Between my walls the silence flames,

I'd love to find an inch of blame,

To hate, to throw across your name.

But still, I can't despise you.

You tease

With fingers, looks

Your eyes.

And make me ache for wants unwise

Your thudding chest

My praying thighs.

Like you, my mind won't stop and breathe.

I've played the Other Girl before

It ended. Sobbing on the floor.

Inside the mirror grins

A whore

Now here I am, again again.

I'll miss those things we'll never do.

Forget the childish shit I drew.

I'll savour words, before they're through,

I'll lie inside my crystal prison.

Say I'm naive and rash and

Young.

A blinded girl, too highly strung

A world to say - I've lost my tongue.

It's not important, leave it now.

How did it ever get to this?

For now, at least

I'll cry and miss.

Bet birds would never reminisce...

Please smile,

She's lucky lucky lucky.