Day 57, 58
The show is over, I am back at day to day college and right at home in my unmotivated attitude towards Alevels.
He hasn't at all done what he said he would, what he planned to of course. To "Cut me out," that is. I freaked out over nothing, as it happens I am still very much there and he hasn't cut even a little bit.
"All I want is for this to end" he said. And thats after a few days. Well in my angry disposition I simply wait to see whatever happens, but the way he talks... Now, I hate the word "lol" its stupid, people use it as a valid response when it isn't and I genuinely hate it. But in this instance, if he keeps going the way he seems to be - lol. I was right all along. Lol. There isn't any point being too upset for now. Lol.
He has made certain things very, very clear and I'm grinning like a spiteful Cheshire Cat. I feel, of course, for her. But it has happened to me. It has happened to thousands of girls and women for centuries. Life goes on, I guess?
Anyway, I'm ranting, but even these little snippets of confession get me through the day.
"I'm about at my end here." Yeah, well so am I darling.
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